According to Mayan astrology, I’m a portal. My birthday calculates to my being – a doorway.
Now here’s a dream I had about ten years ago. Don’t stop reading yet because it’s a very cool dream.
I’m walking down the middle of a main street in the middle of the night. I’m in a deserted town headed towards ‘home’. As I’m walking I look up to the roof of a short building and notice a small black boy watching me. I don’t think much of it and continue walking towards my house.
Once I’m inside I see people sleeping all over the house – on the couch, on chairs, even on the floor. I have to step over people to reach my bedroom. When I get to my bedroom door, which is open (mind you, I don’t know this house or any of these people in real life) I stop because the boy who was on the roof earlier is now standing next to the doorway – and he’s a man. A huge black man.
We don’t speak, but I understand he wants me to learn the significance of walking through the doorway. We look at each other and I understand he’s been around for a long long time – eons – and that he knows – a lot – about the Universe and – everything. He isn’t human.
I look through the doorway into my room. Then I walk through. And as I walked through – in the very center of the doorway, I understood there is a place of perfect balance – of being neither here nor there – of being centered. There is stillness in that space and it’s also a space of transition. Leaving behind and entering the new. When I entered my room the dream ended and I woke up feeling sad – like I wanted to stay in the dream with him and learn more.
I’m not sure what it means to be a portal, but I’ve learned the importance of making decisions and spotting “doorways”. We’re always confronted with or given opportunities to choose and at some point one either has to turn around or go forward. When we choose to not make a choice, which is the action of inaction or nonaction – that’s still an action and things still happen. It’s important to be aware of the experiences of choice, actions and consequences.